Planted Seeds

I've realized  I can be selfish, impatient, unreliable, mean, jealous, lazy, etc. I'm also aware that these characteristics can be a clear representation of the relationship that I have with God. How can these characteristics exist within someone who is suppose to not only be a follower of His word but someone who leads others to His presence. Recognizing our character flaws shouldn't be a disappointment at all. I see it as divine intervention. I don't know about anyone else but I'd much rather live a life filled with joy, patience, kindness, yes all the fruits of the spirit. And how can that happen, if in the midst of us thinking we have it all going on, He doesn't step in and slow us down by revealing us to ourselves? That's just amazing to me that even when we feel that He's punishing us, He's actually strengthening us to prepare us for the great work that's ahead for us. If we all would take time to evaluate ourselves, most would quickly realize that we aren't even close to being ready to fulfill our Godly purpose. And I've come to realize that it's nothing to be ashamed of because He finds joy in just knowing that we're thinking of Him and how we can get closer to Him, That is where the hard part comes in, at least I think so. So many times I've found myself telling God that I'm ready to release all that is keeping me from Him and then I find myself crawling right back to those worldly things. So many times I've begun my bible studies and after a few days, nothing. But here I am, a few days before the beginning of 2015, with my mind set on pleasing Him in the coming year. I'm tired of feeling incomplete because fleshly desires have reigned over His desires. I'm not promising perfect in the coming year, I'm just dead set on becoming better than I am now. 

I'm starting this blog to create accountability for myself. I'm one of those people who always has a million thoughts going through my mind but I never take time to explore them. I think that it's something God has set on my heart to do because for the past couple of weeks, I've had some great ideas to come through. And who knows, this may be Him working through me to help someone else. There are many people out there who are like me, tired of feeling a vacancy deep down because there has been no complete commitment to Him. So let's do something about it!